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Question: I have found the cure for depression!!!!!!! who wants it?

(Posted by: Hershel. L on 2009-11-27 09:51:23)

Okay, I have been severly depressed for months now. It seemed like forever. But it was eating me up inside. I needed help. lots of help. i lookedit up on the web, and i was very very sure i had it. i asked endless questions, took loads of tests, spent hours researching it, and it all pointed to depression. i knew i had it. one day, when the person i trusted most in the world (a friend) was getting annoyed at me for the millionth time that day because i was acting all sad and depressed, i just couldnt hold it in anymore. i told her. i told her everything. at first she thought i wasnt serious. she thought it would just go away. but then, she started to understand what i was saying. something clicked. she understood just how serious it was. she knew. she told me to tell my mum, and to go to the doctors. but everytime i tried to tell my mum, i just couldn't. i physically couldn't make my mum worried or sad because of me. my other close friends had noticed something was wrong, and they soon got me to admit that there was. but i wouldnt tell them exactly. until my close friend who knew eventually gave in and told them. then came one of the worst bits. my friends (which i love very very very much) burst out crying. i couldnt belive that they were crying over ME. i had convinced myself i was worthless. i couldnt even look in the mirror. this was it for me. i HAD to tell my mum. i couldnt have people getting upset over me anymore. but when i came home from school i jst couldnt tell her. i avoided her. but then she started asking me questions about why i wasnt eating my lunch anymore. why i was lying to get out of things. why i was acting so strange. so i burst into tears and told her. i told her everything. and afterwards i felt so much better, but still really sad. so i went and sat in my room crying. i thought to myself - why am i so sad???? i have a family that loves me, friends that love me, a boyfriend that loves me. i used to be so smart until i gave it all up because i was sad. i used to be so content and happy. i used to be faithful to god. but now . . . then i thought WHY IN THE WORLD HAVE I DONE THIS TO MYSELF??? I AM UNIQUE, ONE OF A KIND, LOVELY, BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING. I SHOULD BE HAPPY. I HAVE NO REASON TO BE SO SAD 24/ 7. PEOPLE LOVE ME. PEOPLE CRY FOR ME. PEOPLE, ACTUAL HUMAN BEINGS LOVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that was it for me. i couldnt see another person be sad because of me. i couldnt see my mum cry ever agin. so i decided, right then and there, that i would try to bre happy. it may sound impossible, but somehow, because of love, i could. and im not always happy. there is a part of me that is still sad. but the rest of me has found a new love for life, and i am so very estatic, so i just want to say LOVE IS THE REASON I AM HERE TODAY I LOVE LIFE I LOVE IT thank you i hoope i could help someone x

Posted by: Jem K on 2009-11-27, 09:57:14

Aw thankyou, that is really sweet :) its actually helped me a bit :) x

Posted by: ♥ Hoℓiday ♥ on 2009-11-27, 09:57:58

Sounds like you had a some kind of a spiritual connection. I ask God to help me be the best I can be. I have had my ups and downs in my own life. I am a born again Christian. Christ suffered on the cross ,so he would empathize with us and our pain. (emotional & physical pain)

Posted by: yipyap on 2009-11-27, 09:58:43

I think that was really nice of you to go through the trouble of writing all that and posting it on YA for the benefit of others.

Posted by: Spicey on 2009-11-27, 10:01:03

You have learned how "not to be depressed " and learned to count your blessings. Life isn't always so peachy keen for everyone--when I get the flu or a virus--I know I'm depressed physically, so I try to take good care of myself. I have financial troubles right now--everything went wrong at once--I know those around me feel my depression--I know why I'm depressed--so try to look for the best of everything in each day, and continue to persue and conquer my financial woes. Best wishes to you and keep up the good work! If you count your blessings, and remember that no one in the world is "happy happy " all the time, that we all have our down times--you'll continue to be on the up swing and people will support you. You know how to be depressed, and you know how "NOT " to be depressed. God bless you and Happy Holidays!

Posted by: Beth Hardy on 2009-11-27, 10:17:42

I think I've listened to 21 Guns one too many times. And you've been having a "Green Day " everyday. But yeah, being happy isn't that simple. Thanks for ranting on here too. This gives us hope.

Posted by: Nadine on 2009-11-27, 10:18:02

Lovely passage I used to have depression myself .

Posted by: Isn't Me Strange? (LOVE) on 2009-11-27, 11:14:58

Good for you!!! ^ I mean that with all the sincerity in the world I wish it was that simple for everyone.

Posted by: Mattman on 2009-11-30, 13:32:43

It comes to show you should not let things get to you down.