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Question: Another round of depression...?
(Posted by: Churchill on 2010-03-14 13:23:52)
I have been feeling horrible for the past couple of weeks. I pretty much dropped everything I used to cherish. I haven't spoken to my best friend in nearly two and a half weeks, I am trying to avoid my mom, I never answer my phone and I feel horrible. I have been seeing a counselor, but she helps as much as a kid's band- aid helps a gunshot. My mom keeps pushing me to go to the gym, which I do, but I hate it. I am being annoyed by my old school chums and I find them annoying. My family thinks I like them, but I hate them. My grandmother I just want to kill her. She always guilt trips me by saying things like: "Oh, I have been through a lot too. " or "You aren't sad, and hatred comes from the devil. " If she doesn't shut up with that I am going to kill her some day. I don't say anything to anyone about what I am feeling and I guess it's boiling up inside. I have this problem of not wanting to let people down. I'll go out of my way for people and they treat me like trash. I am starting to believe that all people are just rude jerks that need to die. What should I do? "I have been seeing a counselor, but she helps as much as a kid's band- aid helps a gunshot. " I meant gunshot wound. |
