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Question: Eating addiction/depression. please help. need serious answers.?
(Posted by: so_silent10 on 2010-03-14 18:10:24)
I'm 18 years old and lately I just haven't haven't been able to control my eating, which is very unlike me. As of now, I probably only weigh about 126 pounds, but about 16 of those pounds have come within the past 2 months. When I have my "eating days ", as I call them, I'll consume up to 4, 000 calories or sometimes more (I'm great at counting up calories, so that's how I can give a number). The worst part of all this is that these days are more like "eating nights " since that's when I do most of this eating. It usually comes after dinner, and before I know it, 1 guilty snack turns into an additional day's worth of calories. Once I start eating, almost nothing I tell myself can make me stop. I'll tell myself things such as " I'll stop having these eating binges starting tomorrow ", and usually I can get back on track for a day or two at most, but I always come back to them and consume far more calories than what I had burned off during those days. I've been deeply hurt about a girl since December, and I don't know whether my constant eating is due to this depression or just a simple lack of will power. If this is about the girl, then I'm simply going to keep gaining weight because nothing will help me move on from that any time soon. I could only move from her if I found another girlfriend, and with graduation around the corner, it's too late for that. I love her and will for some time to come. I do things such as jog and lift weights nearly everyday, but that doesn't completely make up for all the calories I consume. My parents won't listen to me, as they always said I needed to gain weight. Well now I'm technically at a healthy weight, but if my eating continues, I'll gain another 15 pounds by graduation. Gaining over 30 pounds in one semester is never good, no matter which way you look at it. Please, I need help and advice. How can I stop having these binges? It's beginning to really show on my face; I can't even see my jawline anymore. And, is this eating really due to my depression about her? I've always been jogging and lifting weights, just to stay in shape. Those aren't things that I just recently started to combat the weight gain. |